I'd been taking these acting workshops through the SAG-AFTRA conservatory. I took two workshops that required immediate intimacy. Right. Now. Within 30 minutes in a room of complete strangers, I had to cry, love, yearn and regret.
I delivered. That's what actors do, but I had to reflect on how each and every time actors are asked to be "authentic." By being authentic, we lay it down, offer the most intimate moments of our lives through our bodies, speech and minds. After each acting experience, I'd felt, in a way, closer to something higher than myself. Was it God? Or Enlightenment? Or an elevated sense of self? When I was doing AIDS work, some of the most spiritual times of my life were connecting with someone who was dying. There was no wall between us, it was just two human beings connecting at a core level. That's what those acting workshops resembled--a core level of connecting. The director and casting people were EXPECTING to connect on a deeper level, so this cold place with strangers because a temple of sorts. For 10 minutes--the time it took to act my scene--I felt something sacred. Who knew at an acting workshop, I'd be "taken to church." It was a nice place to be.